The Dizzy Disciple

Who you are is God's gift to you. Who you become is your gift to God. As a homeschool mom, I am both teaching and learning everyday. May I always be a disciple who is unafraid to have her light shine!

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Location: Lehigh Valley, Pennsylvania, United States

I'm a Catholic homeschool mom with two daughters, one husband, and four cats. In addition to being the "teacher" at home, I teach weekly at our area learning center, as well as work at our local YMCA a few times a week. Occasionally I take to the stage and have some fun on my own!

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

Meatball Meditations

Yesterday I spent the day in the kitchen, first kneading and braiding a Swedish cardamon bread, and then rolling out 5 1/2 pounds of Swedish meatballs....for two long hours I sat there rolling, and it gave me lots of time to reflect. Shortly after beginning, my youngest arrived, looked in the bowl, and declared, "....awwh, Mom, that's dis-GUST-ing!!!" I have to admit that by looks alone, she was right. Meatball mixture is NOT a pretty sight, nor does it make your hands all that attractive to look at. I calmly told her, "well, right NOW it looks gross, but once I roll them all out and bake them, they turn out quite delicious!" Granted, this is a girl who lives on assorted pasta shapes and assorted french fry shapes, so I don't think she'll be sampling them to agree or disagree.

However, I began to think of my faith in terms of being a meatball. When I first allowed God's grace to change me, I must have looked an awful lot like that meatball on the outside.....all kinds of raw junk thrown together in a big mess. AFter years of living the "pagan" lifestyle, that's what my spiritual life was...a big mess. One that I thought was "quite dis-GUST-ing" as she put it. Now all by itself, a meatball mixture is going to stay that way...and so would my faith life. In order to change, both needed to be molded. Those meatballs were lovingly rolled, and occassionally I had to add a bit more, or take a bit away, or do the sphere over again, until I was satisfied that it would hold together and turn out the right way.

I, too, am like that meatball....without allowing God to take me in His hand and mold me, I would have been nothing. I think He had to roll me for a LONG time before He was ready to put me through the next step....the fire. Again, without being heated from within to just the right temperature, a meatball can be downright deadly. I, too, needed the grace of the Holy Spirit and the fire of Christ's love to get rid of all the deadly stuff inside.

I guess that's where the comparison stops though. The meatballs are now in the freezer ready to go to MA tomorrow for a big family reunion this weekend (our 49th annual reunion!), and by Sunday night they'll be gone. Me? I hope to think I'll be around a little longer than that! I also realize that I will be a meatball over and over again in life, as God continues to mold me and shape me into the person He means for me to be. The saints are meatballs that are done. Me? I still have a lot of rolling needed, I think.

I'll be out of the blogosphere until late Mon or ape husband will be staying home due to some crazy work schedules with fiscal years, so I hope that he is able to get online and see what's happening in the world. Hope everyone has a great weekend!

By the way, I just did a reflection on MEATBALLS....maybe I should worry...:O)

Sunday, June 19, 2005

Happy Father's Day

I woke up early this morning, and spent some time remembering my dad...he's been gone almost five years now, and there are still those moments I miss him terribly, but most of the time I have just warm memories. Sometimes I'm sad when I think of what he missed out on in not being a church goer...that call to community is part of our faith, and I think he would have found so many ways to quietly serve. However, he lived a life that reflected Jesus...his unselfish love to his family, his willing heart to help others...his unconditional love for his children...much of my own image of God was learned because of who my Dad was. Those of you who knew him will no doubt agree...

I also want to thank God this morning for the father of MY children...this wonderful man who I've been so blessed to be with for almost 15 fifteen years. I thank you for his devotion to his wife and daughters, knowing that we are a "little church". I know without a doubt that family has priority over his job, and I am grateful. As a dad, he is firm, loving, honest, and true....and even downright silly at times, to the delight of his little girls! I watch them together and know that they are learning not just about their own dad, but about a loving God who loves His children unconditionally....they see not just a father who provides for them, but a role model for the kind of man I pray God provides for each of them someday...most of all, I thank you for a man who shows his children just how much he loves his wife.
Last night we talking about how "easy" our marriage has been...certainly not without it's ups & downs, but all in all, it's been easy. Why God blessed us in this way I can't say...I can only give thanks. Happy Father's Day to all of you dads out there, and a special thank you to my wonderful "ape" husband.

Friday, June 17, 2005

And some things just make sense...

You scored as Roman Catholic. You are Roman Catholic. Church tradition and ecclesial authority are hugely important, and the most important part of worship for you is mass. As the Mother of God, Mary is important in your theology, and as the communion of saints includes the living and the dead, you can also ask the saints to intercede for you.

Roman Catholic


Evangelical Holiness/Wesleyan


Neo orthodox


Reformed Evangelical








Classical Liberal


Modern Liberal


What's your theological worldview?
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Tuesday, June 14, 2005

You've been book tagged!!

A new reader of my blog has "book tagged" me, which means I get to answer the following questions, and then send them on to five others to do the same...her blog is one that touches the be sure to visit
Loni at Journaling Through the Valley....and it's nice to have yet another homeschool mom to get to know! Okay, my questions:


1. The most books you've ever owned.
Well, that would be one who met my husband as a penpal through an organization called "Single Bookloves", we were sort of "condemned" to a life of clutter and dusty bookshelves anywhere we can fit one...add two kids who like to read and the decision to homeschool a few years back...well, you get the idea! Before we moved out to PA over 13 years ago I had the idea to actual "catalog" all my husband's books as an anniversary gift...I got them all written down and at that time there were over 2300...13 years later, I guess we could probably open a little branch of the local library here! (Maybe pushing close to 3000???? We have 15 bookshelves!)

2. The last book I bought . . .
"ON STAGE" and "LIGHTS, CAMERA, ACTION" by Lisa Bany-Winters. They are two children's drama activity books that I'll be using next year to teach a drama/music theater class at our homeschool coop.

3. The five books that mean the most to me are. . .
BIBLE, the dictionary, the biography of ST. ELIZABETH BAILEY SETON, LETTERS TO GABRIEL by Karen Santorum, and the BABY BLUES cartoon books (they keep me sane and are a lovely reflection of the insanity that takes place daily in our home!). Ask me again tomorrow, and aside from the first selection, you might get a totally different list! :O)

Before I name my "tag-ees", please know that I've been lax in reading my blogs in the last husband said that this one's been going around, so if I'm tagging someone who's already been tagged elsewhere, disregard it, okay?


...and because he's such a wonderful husband who allowed me an "easy" one...

Anyone else have hot, cranky kids??

Well, it's 7:23 AM and it's already hotter outside than in....much as I love living in PA, this early summer heatwave has got me in a GROUCHY mood!! We don't have air conditioning, and this heat and humidity remind me of my Houston days.

The girls have been cranky, cranky, cranky.....unfortunately, so has mom! Today we absolutely stuck at home as I insisted that my Ape Husband take the good car to work. The "bad" car--the one he usually drives--has NO fan, so no air whatsoever...and the driver's window doesn't open either, so he's just driving around a portable oven! He SAYS it's not so bad as he parks on the lowest deck of the parking garage where it at least stays DARK, but I noticed he didn't fight me today when I told him to take the other car! :O)

We have a little mini pool that helps, but the day ahead sure does seem long! At least there is a coldfront promised tomorrow!

Update on the showdown at the okay corral....there is a baby jay in the next this morning, so the "feud" has been taken up a notch!! I guess I should be grateful that I don't have to spend my day flying around chasing crows away!! Off to make dinner before it gets any hotter...then another of scrapbooking in front of the fan!

Monday, June 13, 2005

Blue Jay Mamas....

Have been absent from blogworld this past week; have found it so relaxing to just sit and read or scrapbook, and not really care too much about the world's events!
Today, however, I was struck by the fierce determination of a blue jay mama and papa to defend their nest that I had to write. I suspected that jays had nested in our huge maple tree as I remember them "scoping" the tree out earlier this spring. Yesterday while sitting outside the back door I happened to look up and saw the nest with mama bird perched inside ....JUSt outside the kitchen door. I don't think the babies have hatched yet...or if so, they are still too tiny to make much noise.

This morning the commotion began when two crows decided they wanted jay eggs for breakfast. I watched all day as they kept coming back, and the jays were SO aggressive against these birds over twice their size! My little one asked why they were being so mean, and I told her, "that mama is protecting her babies...and I know just how she feels!" It was just another moment of realization of how God planned and ordered the universe so that parents protect their children.

Now, I know, there are mother animals who eat their young--and sadly far too many HUMAN mothers that deny life for their own--but this jay had such a mama's heart, and the male was just as fierce in protecting his mate. Not just his territory, but his MATE and unborn children. My little one and I sat on and off all day watching the attempts, and how each time they were driven away....once gone, they would both fly back up and tenderly attend to the nest.

I've already warned my daughter about how the jays will also go after the cat once the babies are born...especially if one should fall....and I've also explained the instincts of cats to eat baby birds. Today, however, I just enjoyed the show. I know that in animals its more instinct than love, but nonetheless I'll be watching this nest daily with my binoculars.

Aside from that, I think I've also kept away because I'm such a BEAR with this never ending heat wave FAR too early in the summer! I don't do heat and humidity well, and am just downright cranky. Unfortunately, so are both daughters. Coldfront is due on Wednesday...I"ll be the one standing out in the rain thanking God for the northwest wind!